Chapter 6

EPOV

What a night. I have to admit Bella was a pretty cool girl, and the sex was great, but bringing her home to the look on Chief Swan’s face was priceless. I could not wait to tell Jazz and Emmett all about it. I seriously thought he was going to shit a fucking cow. I would not want to be Bella right about now.

I had driven about five miles from Alice’s house, when I noticed my check engine light come on. I looked at my gas gauge realizing the problem. I was out of gas. “Fuck!” I pulled over to the side of the road, and put on the emergency break. Great. I did not want to walk all the way into town for some gas.

I picked up my phone and dialed Emmett. He had better fucking answer. I had shit to do today, and knew my mom was going to wonder where I had spent the night.

I let the phone ring about five times, and before the voice mail could pick up, I hung up. I dialed again with the same result. After the fourth time, Emmett finally answered with a gruff, “What the fuck Cullen? Some of us are sleeping here. You had better be hurt or on your way to jail, because if not I am going to fucking kill you.” Emmett was NOT a morning person.

“Get your ass up and come and get me. I ran out of gas, and I am walking down Main Street toward town. I will expect you here in no less than ten minutes.” I said as I hung up the phone. He had better get here.

I was exhausted, but I continued to walk hoping that I could keep myself warm. My thoughts drifted back to my night.

Bella’s laugh.

Bella’s smile.

Bella’s body.

The sounds Bella made when she came for the first time.

I had been with my share of virgins before, but I had never been with a girl so inexperienced that responded the way she did to me. It was as if our bodies fit together like a puzzle. She was the yin to my yang.

Most girls were so freaked out that once you broke the “V” barrier, they started crying and shit. Making you feel all guilty. It was not as if they were not just begging me to “do it” moments before. Getting the girls hot and ready is not the problem, keeping them that way after the tidal wave of emotion and reality of their actions sets in, is another issue.

Bella was different. Sure, she let out that lone tear, but that was it. She fell right back into the grove and actually enjoyed herself. I was proud of that. A part of me hoped that she did not feel regret now that it was over. Maybe I would call her sometime. What the hell? Where did that come from? I did not call girls back. Girls called me.

I did not have time to emotionally ponder this new development because I saw Emmett’s car pull around the corner. He laid on his horn once he saw me and continued honking until his car reached me.

“Cut that shit out, Emmett. You want to wake the whole town?” I chastised.

“Might as well. I’m up. Everybody should be up.” I could tell his attitude had not improved. I really did not want a sulking Emmett on my hands all day, so I offered my version of an olive branch.

“So you want to hear about my night or what?” I asked.

“You better give me something good, as I am still planning on beating your ass.” He mumbled grumpily.

“Well, you were right on about how into me she was. Little Bella is a dragon in bed. She was seriously hot and all up in my shit. I couldn't keep her off me.” I noticed a slight rise in his lips. He was enjoying this, but was not ready to admit it.

“And, so…was she...tight? Come on bro; give me some details to think about while I'm in the shower this morning for god sakes.” He smirked at me, and I was suddenly grossed out. Did I want Emmett thinking about Bella like that? It had never bothered me before, but now it just seemed…wrong.

I had to say something, or he was going to know I was off. The last thing I needed was Emmett cluing in on my thoughts about Bella. I was not ready for that shit.

“You know man, the usual. She was your typical virgin. All insecure one minute and hot and heavy the next. What can I say?” I then tried to deviate the conversation from discussing the intimate specifics of the evening. “But the BEST part of the night was when we got home. Her father, the one and only Chief ‘fucking’ Swan was there to see us get out of the car with bed hair and all. It was fucking priceless. You would have died to see the look on his face.”

Emmett was all into the scene now. “No shit, man. Really? God damn, that shit is funny. What did you say?” He laughed.

“I told her that she was no longer Daddy’s Little Girl.” We were both laughing our asses off. However, I did feel a small tinge of guilt beneath my laughter. I suddenly did not want Emmett thinking anything bad about Bella, so I added.

“Yeah, but really, she was a cool girl. I had a great time. I might see her again?” There that didn’t sound so bad. I could see a girl again. I tried to relax, but I noticed Emmett staring at me.

“What the hell are you looking at?” I asked.

“Oh no!” Emmett laughed. “Oh no, no, no! Little Eddie is falling for the Little Swan. I can’t believe it.” He was rolling now. I thought we were going to have a wreck as he was laughing so hard.

“Cut that shit out, Emmett. I don’t know what you are talking about. Just get me to the gas station already, and don’t ask me anything else. You obviously are not mature enough to handle these conversations.” I was pissed. What did he mean I was falling for her? Just because I wanted to see her again. Big deal. People did that all the time.

Emmett stopped laughing long enough to add, “Don’t get your panties in a bunch, dude. I was just jacking with ya.”

“Whatever, just shut up and drive. Asshole!” I responded.

We got to the gas station, and I filled up the safety container with as much gas as I could get in the fucker. I did not want to have to call Emmett again later.

The rest of the drive was silent, until I got back to my car.

Emmett put his hand on my arm as I tried to exit the car, “Hey, your secret is safe with me…lover boy!”

I heard his booming laugh as I slammed his car door. "Asshole." I muttered and turned to my vehicle. One thing for sure I wasn't going to be able to call Bella, I would never live it down. "Fuck!" I yelled, kicking my car's rear tire as hard as I could.

BPOV

I was glad to go to school on Monday morning; breakfast was very awkward as was the whole weekend. Dad was not speaking to me and could not even look me in the eye. I had disappointed him in so many ways, and I was not even sure if he even thought of me as his daughter anymore. I was so ashamed that I let this happen. I was not supposed to be this girl. This was not supposed to happen. What had gotten into me?

I never got to speak to any of the girls after Saturday morning. I had no idea if they even knew what was going on. Dad had taken my phone off me, turned it off, and told me to stay in my room. He did not want to see me. I was a reminder. I heard the phone ringing down stairs all weekend but the only thing I heard Charlie say to whomever was calling was "she isn't able to come to the phone right now."

All I knew was that I was grounded, grounded until the end of time. My Dad did not trust me, I cannot say that I blame him, but he did not even trust me enough to be left alone after school. He had arranged with Billy that I was to go home with Rachel after school and spend my afternoons at their house doing homework until Charlie had finished his shift at the station. I was not allowed to go anywhere else. I was going to be a prisoner.

These were the times I missed my Mom. I needed her, I knew she would be disappointed in my behavior, but I could speak to her. Explain what happened, or at least that is what I wished would have happened. Who knows what it would be like if she had not died? This was my reality though and my Dad was not going to let me forget this mistake, ever. I wiped the tears that were falling down my face and stepped out of my truck, I did not want to talk to the girls. I did not know what they would think of me. "Bella!" I heard Alice's voice yell from across the car park, "Bella!" I looked around at her, and she was smiling and waving her arm trying to get my attention.

Maybe it would not be so bad after all, and then I thought that maybe they did not know? Then my stomach twisted in a knot again.

"Bella?" I heard a softer voice call from behind me; I turned to see Rachel's worried face. She knew. "Are you okay?"

Tears filled my eyes at my friends concern, "Not really, I don't know who I am anymore."

"Shhh," She put an arm around me, "don't let them know Bella." She said nodding to Alice and Rose sitting in her car. "How did it happen? Is that what you wanted?" she said concerned. "Like I know you were having fun with him, but spending the night with him?"

"Yes. No. I don't know. He said I had been drinking, and he thinks Tanya spiked my drink." She did not look surprised, “You drank what I did. How did you feel?" I asked looking into her eyes.

"Oh, all of us realized we were drunk when we left," she said with a grim look on her face. "Alice and Rose thought it was funny that they were too gone to care, I did try to get them to come home with me. I threw up in the bushes a few times and called Jacob."

"What? Why weren't you with the girls?" I was shocked; of all the things that could have happened, I realized mine was not actually too bad. I was alive; this could have been a lot worse.

"Tanya took them off to a party at one of the boys’ places. I was too sick to go with them, so she just left me there." Her tone sounded both angry and hurt.

"I am so sorry," I cuddled her back, "I should never have left you." I meant every word. I could not believe what had happened.

"Why would she do this?" I said to Rachel as we both spotted Tanya walking towards us in the car park with a smug smile on her face.

"Morning girls," she said, "have a good weekend?" A knowing smile gracing her features.

"Not really," I spat angrily at her, "how could you spike our drinks Tanya?" At this point, we had quite a gathering at my outburst; students had stopped dead in their tracks to see the show down.

"Settle down princess," she said rolling her eyes to the crowd.

"I will not settle down, how dare you?"

"You were having a fabulous time don't deny it," the bitch said, "you just needed to loosen up. No harm, no foul." She had the audacity to shrug.

"You really have no idea how serious this could have been, and you left Rachel? How could you do that?" I accused her.

"Now look at the pot calling the kettle black. I didn't see you having a problem with leaving her as you left with Mr. Sunshine Cullen. By the way, is he still using the old, 'we won't do anything you don't want to do' line." Her words cut to the bone. She was right about my behavior with Rachel. I knew I should never have left her there alone. She was my friend, and I chose a guy over her. What was I thinking? That's right I wasn't because she spiked my drink!

However, her words about Edward almost knocked me to my knees. Those were almost his exact words. I knew I was not special, but he really seemed to try to make me feel that way for the evening.

I was brought out of my musings by Rachel's comment, "Tanya, you have nothing on Bella when it comes to letting down your friends. Come on Bella. Let's get to class. Obviously, Tanya has none."

Before we reached our lockers, Rachel reached up and put her hand on my shoulder, "Please don't listen to her. I know you made a bad decision on Friday night, but don't worry about me. I just want to make sure you are okay. He didn't hurt you, did he?"

I was openly sobbing now. How could I tell her how wonderful it had been. I mean, I did not have any point of reference, but I thought it was a pretty good 'first time'. He had been so sweet and patient with me. If I believed Tanya that had all been a lie. Why is it so much easier to believe the bad stuff? "I'll be alright. I am just not so sure Charlie is ever going to trust me again. He is pretty pissed."

"Yeah, I heard all about it. Hey, the good news is that you get to spend time with me after school. That will be fun. We can get a head start on that English project."

Spending time with Rachel was not so bad. I was just upset about having to be 'watched' like a three year old. I did not want to hurt her feelings, so I added, "That sounds like a great idea."

That got me thinking a little, "Hey Rachel, will Jacob be there?"

She seemed to understand what I was getting at. He was a sweet kid, but he was always hanging around. "Don't worry too much. He has been spending more and more time with the guys. He is hardly ever home any more. You should be safe."

We both giggled now I was relieved Rachel understood, I still had to talk with Alice and Rose but I would worry about that later. The Bell sounded. we smiled at each other and headed off to class.